I've realised recently that when I'm praying, I have never really used the word 'Father' which is very disconcerting for me to realise. Through all the prayers I've prayed (and during exam periods especially that's a LOT) I have never addressed my God with the word Father. Which he is, as he was the one that fashioned my very existence.
I realised this whilst praying with others that a lot of people do call him Father which then led me to question why I have never done so.
I came to the conclusion that I was still trying to hold on to power in whatever way I could, as calling someone Father is really quite a submissive thing to do. As you are admitting they are your elder and have power over you. So it made me realise even more so that I have no power of my own and everything comes from the father.
I was really quite shocked that i had been doing this for so long and it showed me that I wasn't treating my awesome heavenly Father in the way I should. It was very humbling to realise that even in my prayer life I can sometimes completely miss very important truths.
It does astonish me sometimes on how God can teach me a lot from such a small realisation. He knows my heart and I will continue to fall short of his glory. But through what Jesus did on the cross I don't have to worry about how bad I am but focus on what an amazing savour and a loving Father I have and it's amazing to realise that he really does love me (even when I was against him) in a way I can't even begin to comprehend.
David
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