Last week I had to make arguably the hardest decision of my life. I won't go into details as I don't feel it necessary to talk about that. However believe me when I say it was a huge decision.
I knew that this decision was coming up and the night before I distinctly prayed that God would just make it abundantly clear on what he wanted me to do. And his will would be done. I didn't realise at the time that God would make it as clear as he did. It was mind boggling really. But first what happened....
It got to the actual making of the decision, I chose what my heart wanted and what I thought what God wanted for me. But I soon realised that this was very much the wrong thing to be doing. But in doing the wrong thing I had made the situation infinitely worse than it otherwise could have been.
I was completely and utterly ashamed of how sinful I was capable of being and I was distraught at what I had done. I was also very angry at God in a very pitiful way that he wanted me to make this decision. Even though I had distinctly prayed for it to be abundantly clear on what I should do. I just didn't want/expect it to be the answer he gave me or make it as clear as he did.
Even with all the mess that I had made for myself he really did rescue the situation and he was glorified through it. I did see after a few days that he made me make the right decision and gives me amazing confidence and trust in my amazing God that very much has a plan for my life. And all I need to do is rely on him.
David
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