Why am I not crying?!

Last month we were reading Ezra and Nehemiah in RBT and countless times through these books people were so in touch with their emotions they broke down and cried when things happened (not in the sense that they cried for no reason but they cried in a God centred way). One example of many is: 


Ezra 3v12-13 - But many of the older priests and Levites and family heads, who had seen the former temple, wept aloud when they saw the foundation of this temple being laid, while many others shouted for joy. No one could distinguish the sound of the shouts of joy from the sound of weeping, because the people made so much noise. And the sound was heard far away.


I was really spoken to with this verse as they were so in-tune with their emotions and open hearted they knew the significance of what was happening and it brought them to tears. I am not sure that if I was in that situation whether I would be brought to tears. Not only did they cry, they 'wept aloud' in the sense that they were so upset by what they saw that they screamed with anguish, so much so that they could be heard far away.


I am not saying that I am a macho man (I used to be the king of moaning about everything when I was little and I got upset and started crying at most things) but now I have grown up a bit, I rarely cry, yeah I get upset from time to time but it is very rare that I actually break down into tears. However I have seen from reading that verse and many others, it is good to cry and I am seeing that being emotional isn't a sign of weakness which is how I have been lead to see it. It's actually a really good thing to cry, especially when there is just cause for it.


This has also been backed up with the Americans coming over, it has been amazing to see how emotional they are (in an inspiring, God centred way) and how they really do have a heart for God, it is so amazing to see how they love Jesus and they get upset at things that I have come accustomed to (e.g the state of Swansea and how sad it is for people to go on living their lives without Jesus).


I will continue to pray that God will continue to cultivate my heart and I won't be blind to things that I shouldn't ignore.


David